4 weeks / 1 month old!

one week older, but not much has changed. every night i hope that he'll sleep one hour extra but i am always disappointed. one night he ended up waking every 2 hours, 12am 2am 4am 6am 8am...that sucked considering each feeding is half an hour and then half an hour to fall asleep. bleh. and during the day i am constantly having to hold him!! when he is awake, he can't be content just chillin, laying around and playing. after a few minutes he'll start crying so i'll have to rock him/bounce him, soooo tiring. i just wish i could figure out why the heck he is crying after i've just changed his diaper, he ate already, and he has been burped!! the swing and playmat don't seem to interest him right now. i'm going to try the bouncy seat next week, but omg i can't get anything done during the day. those few precious minutes/hours that he is asleep in the crib (sometimes he won't even sleep there, he'll fall sleep on my chest and then wake up once i put him down in the crib) i can finally go use the restroom, eat, drink water, do laundry. sigh. what have i gotten myself into?? i'm really hoping it gets easier as he gets older...i've only been alone with him a few days and i'm already frustrated/sick of it. =/ i can totally see how people can get the baby blues, taking care of a newborn is HARD! last night i even mentioned to j, perhaps we should just have one child...oy. everyone says the first few months are the hardest, so i guess i just need to get through it. the first month passed fairly quickly, so hopefully the next one will too! i look forward to the weekends when both j and i are at home so at least i can fob the baby off onto daddy for a little bit.

baby is getting chubby but it is very cute. his skin is super soft and it's fun to rub. he got his first bath last weekend and i'll be giving him a bath every 2-3 days. he seems to enjoy it, he doesn't cry at least! ok...baby is crying....again. wahh..time to go!

3 weeks old

the baby is 3 weeks old already, time seems to pass by a lot faster than when i was pregnant hehe. not really much has changed with baby. his umbilical cord finally fell out a few days ago. omg, he's the noisiest sleeper!! he makes lots of snorts, wheezes, sighs while he is sleeping and it makes it really hard for me to fall back asleep after his feedings. he had his dr appt on tues and he is now 10lbs 2.5oz (75 percentile)!! he's been waking up every 3 hours like clockwork at night to eat (although one night it was every 2 hours which was sooo tiring). each feeding takes about 30-45 mins and then it takes me about 30-60 mins to fall back asleep so i really only get about 1-2 hours of sleep in between. i'm getting sooo sick of all this feeding, i don't really see it as a bonding experience yet =/ i think the hardest part for me is being woken up during my deep sleep and then watching j and tofu sleep so peacefully while i'm stuck tending to the baby. ugh. my issue is not really a lack of sleep because i'm rested enough to be awake during the day with a 1-2 hr nap, it's the interrupted sleep and trying to clear my foggy head while baby is screaming at me. not fun. sigh. i'm REALLY looking forward to when he's older when he doesn't have to eat as much and can sleep longer through the night. i REALLY hope it's soon!

about me, i'm still slooowwly recovering. it kind of sucks that even after 3 weeks i'm still not 100%. i'm so impatient! it still hurts to lift my leg up (like when putting on pants). and since our bed is so high, we had to put my step aerobic apparatus next to my side of the bed so i can get in and out of bed more easily. so sad. and it still feels kind of funny to walk around, but i've kind of been forcing myself to do it (like taking tofu for her walk) in hopes that it'll speed up my recovery. i'm definitely hoping in another 3 weeks when I have my OB visit i'll be back to normal. supposedly you can start exercising 2 weeks after having a vaginal birth, but uhh, i don't see any exercising in my future. luckily i've lost most of my weight, just have 5 lbs to go. once i'm fully recovered i'll definitely need to do some kind of stomach exercises since there is some loose skin there. i tried on a pair of my jeans and they buttoned up, but they were really tight and i had a nice muffin top =/ my belly button looks really weird and wrinkly and i also still have my linea negra, not a pretty sight.

oy..i guess this post has been very complainy. hopefully before i know it, several weeks will have passed and all of these problems will be a distant memory =)

2 weeks old

baby is such a hungry monster, he eats A LOT. at our 2 day appt after we were discharged from the hospital (thurs 8/28), he was down to 6 lb 12 oz because my milk still had not come in yet, so he lost almost 10% of his birth weight (7 lb 6.2oz). so they asked us to come back on sat 8/30 to check our progress. at that appt he was up to 7 lb 3 oz. typical weight gain is only 1/2 oz to 1 oz a day, so he gained 7 oz in 2 days!! j was in disbelief and thought the scale must have been wrong haha we had another weight check on wed 9/3 and he was up to 7 lb 14 oz. another 11 oz in 4 days!! if he continues that kind of growth he's going to be sooo fat =P we have our first pediatric appt on 9/16 so we'll see how his weight is then.

so far everything is going ok...sleeping 2-3 hours at a time sucks though. ugh. i'm looking forward to when i can get 4-5 hours!! also, the baby gets suuuper fussy sometimes and won't go down to sleep. like today he was up from 11am til around 5pm!! it was so tiring trying to figure out what he wanted. i'm just glad it was during the day and not during the night. i think it was because he was hot and it was uncomfortable to sleep but who knows. it was nice that both of us were home so i could pass him off to j when i was tired/given up. good thing my mom will be helping out for the next 2 weeks when j goes back to work, but after that i'll be on my own..eek.

the baby fell asleep on my tummy today and it made me think, wow just 2 weeks ago the baby was inside my stomach and not on top of it! i still can't believe he came out of me haha

one week old

the baby is now a little over a week old and we're slowly getting used to getting 2-3 hours of sleep at a time. it's very tiring oy. it seems like the baby sleeps more during the day than at night. my theory is that the heat wave makes him drowsy and sleepy but i have read somewhere that babies tend to be more active in the night. This is because when they were in the womb all the motions you do during the day rock the baby to sleep so they are usually more active at night. anyways, i'll try to update the blog more often when i have more to write, right now the baby just sleeps and eats...not very exciting. oh, he poops and pees a lot :)

baby is here!

ok i guess this is a little late, but in case you didn't know, the baby arrived on 8/24 2:12pm. You can find out more info about it at our homepage..link is on the right.

lost mucous plug

well, i lost my mucous plug today, so labor should be imminent. could be a few days or week(s), hopefully my doctor can guesstimate something after my internal exam on tues! eek.

baby shower at work

last thurs my coworkers threw me a baby shower! it was very nice of them and totally unexpected. i wasn't really sure what to expect because it was merged with our monthly happy hour, but they planned games and had a cake, so it was fun. we had the baby food game again, but this time the food the person picked was really gross. and totally hard to distinguish because there were at least 5 ingredients in each!! like one of them was green beans, potato, carrots, lentils..that is so hard to distinguish! anyways, got lots of gifts again and our house is overrun with baby stuff. it's everywhere!!

i have a little more than 2 weeks to go and i'm sooo ready for this baby to come out. my stomach is huge and very pointy. oy. two weeks ago i thought i wanted this baby out...now i REALLY want this baby out. i'm hoping it's soon. very soon.

36 week appt

everything is looking good. did the usual- urine test, blood pressure & weight taken, belly measured, and listened to heartbeat. in addition got swabbed for group strep b (if positive will have to take antibiotics during labor) and the dr did an internal exam. she said baby is head down (yay!) and my cervix is starting to thin and is fingertip dilated. so that's good news, my body is starting to prepare for labor...eek. next appt is in 2 weeks.

4 more weeks!!!

i really can't believe i only have 4 more weeks to go, esp since it now means i can go at any time. well... hopefully after next week since the baby will be full term at 37 weeks. my coworkers were planning a surprise baby shower for me, but somehow i was on the email list so i now know about it. hehe. they still haven't set a date yet but the last baby shower we had at work, the guest of honor didn't make it because she had given birth to her baby that morning!! she was 2.5 weeks early AND her labor was a breeze- she basically slept through most of it!! she woke up in the morning feeling pain at 5:15am, timed her contractions and called doctor, dr said, oh i don't think you need to come to the hospital until 7am. she packed her hospital bag and was ready to go at 6:15am, so decide to go to hospital a little early and arrive at 6:45am, and has baby at 7:05am!!! OMG!! she was saying if she had gone to the hospital at 7 she really might have had the baby in the car. wowzers, it would be awesome if my labor was so easy, but i don't know if i'll be so lucky. it's so interesting how labor can be SO different for different people...very odd.

more classes

on sat 7/26 we took a childbirth preparation class (basically a lamaze class but they can't call it that because it's a brand or something). it was a full day class and we mainly just practiced some breathing exercises and some various positions to use when you're in labor. even after the class i'm still soooo nervous about it. on one hand i'm totally ready for this baby to be out of me, and on the other, the labor and postpartum period makes me very worried. i think the main thing is just not knowing what it will be like. i mean, you can try to prepare yourself as much as possible by reading up about it, attend as many classes as you want, but it's still not the same as actually going through it. plus everyone experiences something different, so who knows what mine will be like! i'm really curious to see what contractions feel like and how i'll deal with the pain. my plan is to only get the epidural if i totally can not handle the pain. in all the birthing videos we watched in class, everyone seemed pretty calm when they were in labor. i mean, it looked like it hurt, but they weren't screaming their head off or anything haha another concern i have is the size of the baby's head. since j has a big head, i'm afraid the baby might have a big head too!! i would like to avoid a c-section if at all possible.

anyways, i think once i'm actually going through it all, i'll just have to deal with whatever comes my way and i'll probably be fine. but since i still have a month to ponder what it *might* be like, what *might* happen and what *might* go wrong, it's a little nervewracking. i just need to try to think about other things.

mon night 7/28 we took a breastfeeding class. it was a pretty good class and only 2 hours (thank goodness!) it seems like kaiser santa clara has a really good support system and really wants you to be successful, so i'm feeling fairly confident that breastfeeding will go ok (i hope!).

we are now D-O-N-E with classes..yippee!! baby can come out now =P