3 weeks old

the baby is 3 weeks old already, time seems to pass by a lot faster than when i was pregnant hehe. not really much has changed with baby. his umbilical cord finally fell out a few days ago. omg, he's the noisiest sleeper!! he makes lots of snorts, wheezes, sighs while he is sleeping and it makes it really hard for me to fall back asleep after his feedings. he had his dr appt on tues and he is now 10lbs 2.5oz (75 percentile)!! he's been waking up every 3 hours like clockwork at night to eat (although one night it was every 2 hours which was sooo tiring). each feeding takes about 30-45 mins and then it takes me about 30-60 mins to fall back asleep so i really only get about 1-2 hours of sleep in between. i'm getting sooo sick of all this feeding, i don't really see it as a bonding experience yet =/ i think the hardest part for me is being woken up during my deep sleep and then watching j and tofu sleep so peacefully while i'm stuck tending to the baby. ugh. my issue is not really a lack of sleep because i'm rested enough to be awake during the day with a 1-2 hr nap, it's the interrupted sleep and trying to clear my foggy head while baby is screaming at me. not fun. sigh. i'm REALLY looking forward to when he's older when he doesn't have to eat as much and can sleep longer through the night. i REALLY hope it's soon!

about me, i'm still slooowwly recovering. it kind of sucks that even after 3 weeks i'm still not 100%. i'm so impatient! it still hurts to lift my leg up (like when putting on pants). and since our bed is so high, we had to put my step aerobic apparatus next to my side of the bed so i can get in and out of bed more easily. so sad. and it still feels kind of funny to walk around, but i've kind of been forcing myself to do it (like taking tofu for her walk) in hopes that it'll speed up my recovery. i'm definitely hoping in another 3 weeks when I have my OB visit i'll be back to normal. supposedly you can start exercising 2 weeks after having a vaginal birth, but uhh, i don't see any exercising in my future. luckily i've lost most of my weight, just have 5 lbs to go. once i'm fully recovered i'll definitely need to do some kind of stomach exercises since there is some loose skin there. i tried on a pair of my jeans and they buttoned up, but they were really tight and i had a nice muffin top =/ my belly button looks really weird and wrinkly and i also still have my linea negra, not a pretty sight.

oy..i guess this post has been very complainy. hopefully before i know it, several weeks will have passed and all of these problems will be a distant memory =)